meeeeeeeeeeehhh...

Well, I have spent almost a month sitting on my arse and being bored. Summer is the most boring time of the year, especially for me, because I live at least 15 miles away from my friends, or any form of civilization for that matter. I can't wait until I get my license... speaking of which, I finally got my permit on Thursday! Which means that I need a job so that I can get a car and be able to drive myself around by next summer, which would rock. Oy, I don't know how I'm gonna get enough money though, even if I do get a job, because I only have about two months left... if I got a job NOW... which isn't gonna happen... and I might need training for my job before I start getting paid and stuff... great. The outlook doesn't look too great for me getting any money this summer. I am slowly beginning to loathe you people that are just gonna get a car when you get a license... very... slowly...

The reason that I don't have a job is because I spent a whole month trying to put some tutoring thing together that just didn't work out. I was gonna start my own little business thing and tutor students at the middle school on Tuesdays and Thursdays, but that didn't happen. Ya know why? BECAUSE NOBODY CALLED ME BECAUSE SOME ORGANIZATION PUT AN AD IN THE PAPER THE EXACT WEEK AFTER I PUT MY AD IN IN THE EXACT SAME FREAKIN SPOT!!!!!! Teens have no respect in this world... and that really bugs me. I put flyers up all over the place too... in plain sight. I guess either nobody really needs a tutor, already has one, or decided to get a "better" one... assuming I'm not very good because I'm in high school. Arses.

So yeah, so far this summer has been really sucky. Virtually no success in swimming, no success in getting a job, no success in music, missing my boyfriend worse than I did last summer even though I'm seeing him more this summer (what's up with that?), missing my friends... ugh. I can't wait for it to end so I can just get back into school and won't have to worry about this stupid crap anymore... but most likely, when school starts again, it'll be even worse, because I'll have even more crap on my hands to deal with. And looking at the coming year I can already tell that it's going to be busier than last year (except for when I was in swimming of course... *shudder*). So basically, I'm screwed here.

Oh well, I suppose I will just have to deal with it because there is really nothing I can do about it. Goodbye my friends, I hope you are in a better mood than I am. =)

~Sarah~

A Sudden Burst of Creativity and Inspiration from Nowhere... or is it somewhere?

You are so amazing,

In every single way.

But my heart is fading,

With each passing day.

I wish I could tell you,

How much you mean to me.

But would it be true?

Is it meant to be?

There's something about you,

That I don't understand.

I really wish I knew,

This doubt I cannot stand.

We've spent so much time,

Together and in love.

Sometimes I want to draw the line,

But would that be enough?

Enough to stop this pain,

From lingering inside?

I wish that it would just refrain,

I wish that I could fight.

But through my tears I catch a glimpse,
Of a glowing yonder light.

It almost always seems to hint,

That all will be alright.